convo with julie:)

MeruTheRedFox: what up!
jwls314: hey!
jwls314: how are you?
MeruTheRedFox: how are you miss silly face on picture chipmonk
MeruTheRedFox: i'm good
jwls314: lol
jwls314: im good
jwls314: so what have you been up to lately
MeruTheRedFox: i'm bored
jwls314: im sorry
MeruTheRedFox: sitting
MeruTheRedFox: trying to get a job
jwls314: where at?
MeruTheRedFox: sears
MeruTheRedFox: cashier
MeruTheRedFox: yep yep
jwls314: what happened to caribou?
MeruTheRedFox: i got an interview on wensday
jwls314: nice!!
MeruTheRedFox: i was going to work there, but they don't pay that much
MeruTheRedFox: and that is hard
jwls314: oh ok
jwls314: are you still talking to that guy??
MeruTheRedFox: Chris?
MeruTheRedFox: yep yep
jwls314: so are you guys just good friends or are you wanting more??
jwls314: :-*
MeruTheRedFox: friends
jwls314: ok, good
jwls314: has Scott gotten to you about him yet??
MeruTheRedFox: yep
jwls314: ha ha
jwls314: does Derek still have a crush on you?
MeruTheRedFox: i don't know
MeruTheRedFox: but he called me today
jwls314: really
jwls314: ?
MeruTheRedFox: i haven't talked to him in a long time
MeruTheRedFox: yep
MeruTheRedFox: i didn't talk to him though i was gone
jwls314: do you not see him at tree house much??
MeruTheRedFox: i haven't really been to treehouse sense you left, cuz it is not good enough with out you:-(
jwls314: shush
jwls314: why havent you been there?
MeruTheRedFox: because i have lost intrest for now
MeruTheRedFox: lol
MeruTheRedFox: no scott last week or this week
jwls314: has he been on vacation?
MeruTheRedFox: and no one I want to see, cuz two of them mad me mad>:o
MeruTheRedFox: yes
MeruTheRedFox: Nate and Derek are being mean to me
MeruTheRedFox: and stupid
jwls314: why?
MeruTheRedFox: so i stopped talking to them
MeruTheRedFox: lol
MeruTheRedFox: cuz I told them not to go to segue, cuz there are a lot of drugs and rinking up there, so I thought it would be better if Derek didn't go up there
MeruTheRedFox: and then...
MeruTheRedFox: they got mad at me about it
MeruTheRedFox: and told me i should like butt out of there lives
jwls314: i thought segue was a christian thing?
MeruTheRedFox: but the truth is i just didn't want them to get hurt
MeruTheRedFox: and now i think they are just dumber than i thought
MeruTheRedFox: and so it is pretty sad
jwls314: I know you care about them that is why you warned them!
MeruTheRedFox: yep
jwls314: Im sorry they dont see that
MeruTheRedFox: but now they are just being jerks about everything
jwls314: that stinks...do you not go to segue anymore?
MeruTheRedFox: not really
MeruTheRedFox: to much bad things going on up there
MeruTheRedFox: it is christian
jwls314: weird
MeruTheRedFox: but there are still really bad things there
jwls314: the church part is bad too, or jsut the coffee part?
MeruTheRedFox: the church is good
MeruTheRedFox: it is great now
MeruTheRedFox: but still
jwls314: why is it great now instead of just good??
MeruTheRedFox: and now jenn is even getting annoied with me
jwls314: why?
MeruTheRedFox: because i guess i'm to worried about people
MeruTheRedFox: when they should be able to run their own lives
MeruTheRedFox: so i ran away from it all
MeruTheRedFox: which is bad, cuz i'm not facing my problems
jwls314: I think it is a good thing that you worry about people
MeruTheRedFox: and scott is to busy for anything now so i can't talk to him
MeruTheRedFox: but for some reason i'm dealing with it pretty god, because i'm on drugs for it now
jwls314: what are you running from? The people that are making you upset?
MeruTheRedFox: zolfit
MeruTheRedFox: yes
jwls314: happy pills!!! those can be very helpful
jwls314: i am glad that you are taking them!
MeruTheRedFox: lol
MeruTheRedFox: i hate them
MeruTheRedFox: i hope they dioe
MeruTheRedFox: lol
jwls314: I know they helped me for the longest time!
MeruTheRedFox: die*
jwls314: you make me laugh
MeruTheRedFox: lol
jwls314: so how are you running from the people...just by ignoring them?
MeruTheRedFox: well i close myself off from everyone around me when i do something wrong
MeruTheRedFox: first i say sorry
MeruTheRedFox: but then...
MeruTheRedFox: i close myself off because I feel bad and want to be kicked
MeruTheRedFox: i beat myself up
MeruTheRedFox: lol
jwls314: you didnt do anything wrong...
jwls314: what do you think you did wrong?
MeruTheRedFox: everything
jwls314: such as
MeruTheRedFox: so how or another i blame everything on myself
MeruTheRedFox: i just run it all back to me
jwls314: that is habit that needs to be broken :-)
MeruTheRedFox: yep
MeruTheRedFox: that's why i'm on drugs
jwls314: but it is hard to break!!
MeruTheRedFox: eep!
MeruTheRedFox: but i should be able to do it soon
jwls314: you will, i have confidence in you
MeruTheRedFox: ok good
MeruTheRedFox: :-)
MeruTheRedFox: well sadly i must go cuz my brother needs the comp
MeruTheRedFox: but i hope to talk to you later
jwls314: oh ok
MeruTheRedFox: i will be sending you a letter shortly
MeruTheRedFox: i love you tons
jwls314: me too, I hope everything gets better soon
MeruTheRedFox: and it felt nice to get that out
MeruTheRedFox: love ya babe!
MeruTheRedFox: bye:-)
jwls314: love you too...I am glad :-) Bye!!